some days just go from bad to worse.

Was stood up by a total of 5 people today. 11am chick, Matt cancelled lunch, 2 pm chick, and 2x 6.30 chicks.

But to top it all off, I got all shy once the booze wore off so the xmas party did not go as well as I had hoped from my point of view.

My throat hurts even more and I'm starting to loose my voice, stalling on some vowels and glottal stops.

I'm not ready for this

I tried to sleep in today, instead I wok up at 9am and couldn't get back to sleep. So I texted Aaron to complain.

He responded by asking me out for lunch. Ok, I couldn't have made that bad an impression last night then.

Next he asks where we should go, and if this would be date 1 or 2. OMG! It sort of follows that luch must be 2 after dinner. But he just called it a date, in a serious context. That just left me feeling all nervous.

Anyway, lunch was nice, we talked about stuff, had fun and so on, as you do...but I left in such a panic afterwards. I don't think I'm quite ready to think of these meetings as 'dates', I can handle rendevoux, hanging out etc.

The problem with the date idea, is that dating is a liitle more serious than flirting, and dating leads to getting involved with someone, which leads to pain. It always leads to pain in the end, even if it's 50 happy years down the track. I'm not ready to set myself up for more pain just yet.

I don't know what to do...I might have to actually talk to him about it.

Oh, and still no progress on the flatmate hunting.