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My anxiety attacks are getting so bad I can barely drive.

I'm not breathing properly and I'm blinking at such a rate that I can't see very well. Some days I also lose control of my hand muscles... release grip and lift get swapped around...it's messy.

I think I've found the cause, but can't see an imediate solution.

I don't like my job. I like the company, and the people, but something about the lab work makes me so depressed I have panic attacks. I thought i liked microbiology, but it's just not the same for me as it used to be. The smell of the media was enough to put me at ase from the most aggitated mood, now it makes me worse.

I have 2 months left on my contract, then I have no work at all...equally stressful. I can't leave immediately as I have to give 1 month notice (unless I went to a phyche and got medical advice to stop working), by which time my contract is nearly over anyway...so by the time I find myself a new job to go to, I might as well just slog it out with plans to leave.

I'm hoping to find something else within the company, but I'm not seeing much hope (partly because I don't see much people). I know the managers all like me and would probably try to do something to help, but I don't see them, and I feel wierd broaching the subject.

I need a new job.