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Still no sign of her.

The neighbours baby makes the same sound when she cries. It's gonna be the death of me.

I'm really not holding out much hope for getting her back alive now.

But I want her back. I need to know.


I had to have my mum ring my work and tell them I couldn't teach tonight, I wasn't even up to doing that.

I haven't eaten in 24hours. I've hardly slept, and the sleep I did get was full of dreams that i got up and she was in the kitchen...but of course they were all lies.

How long do I keep it up?

I don't think I'll ever see her again. Alive or dead.  :-( I just want to be able to say goodbye.